I really have been meaning to write in here lately, I swear. Ive just been rather lazy these past weeks. Such is the curse of the unemployed...Also not my fault, Ive put in applications everywhere I could possibly think, even places I really dont want to work. But no one is hiring now...so annoying and inconvenient. But now to update you all on whats been happening since I last wrote, which could turn this into a rather long post, sorry. Lets start with last monday when Katie, Sarah and I went to Rhode Island for the night to visit Sarahs boyfriend Greg and hit up the RI beaches.

It was mad fun, we drove up in the morning, got to Gregs house by noon-ish, hung around there for a bout an hour, then headed over to Misquamget Beach, or how ever the hell you spell it and did a little shopping. I bought a really cute Sex On The Beach (my fave drink) shot glass, which still has to be broken in....then spent the rest of the afternoon at the beach. Around 4-ish we head back to Gregs house and clean up, Katie and I took a shower in our bathing suits together lol, then drove over to Stop and Shop to buy food to grill for dinner, making a muuucccchhhhh needed stop and a Dells stand :D God I love and missed that stuff. Sooo delicious. We bought Sougies, the most delicious hot dogs I have ever eaten before, and some other things for dinner, head back to the house and Greg grills them up. I have to say...one of the most fun dinners Ive had in a while, hot dogs and champagne for dinner lol :)Then we watch The House Bunny and chill for a bit, we were all pretty tired so we went to sleep. The next morning we drive back to CT bc katie had work at 4. It was a really fun mini vacation.

Ok, so last Thursday I went out with Katie for the night, and we met up with her friend James, and he brought a friend, Zack. We all went down to the lake at the end of Lake Garda and chilled and drank and it was alot of fun, James and Katie are so cute together and Zack was really cool and cute, I liked him and we hit it off. At the end of the night he gives me his number and I text him when I get home and we text back and forth for the rest of the night, and we flirted a bunch. He told me how he wanted to kiss me that night, but thought that it would be too much since we just met. Then the next night Katie texts me saying the boys want to hang out again, so we all go out and back to the Lake....the night started off really good, it was me, Katie, James and Zack, and one of their friends, I dont remember his name but he was cool. We chilled on a picnic table and drank again. But since I wasnt driving like the night before, Zack picked us all up, I decided I could drink more. Well, the brandy we were drinking was really strong. The boys warned us the night before that itll just all hit you out of no where and fuck you up. Well thats what happened to me, I drank a little too much, it all hit me at once and I blacked out for the rest of the night.....ended up not being the best night, which really sucks because it started out so well. Zack and I finally kissed, and hes a good kisser too lol, and we were all having so much fun, even had a really nice cop stop by, ask us about some fireworks that were going off on the other side of the lake, chat with us a bit, then told us to have a good night and left. Then I started to get a little drunker...then got even more drunk....the next thing I know its almost 2 in the morning, Im back in my room fucked up and falling into my closet while trying to get undressed and into bed, reassuring Katie on facebook that I got home ok. Shit happened that night, and I was sooooo drunk, I wish I could appologize to Zack for how retarded I was, but after that first night something got messed up with our phones and we cant text each other, which was our only form or communication since he deactivated his FB. I also lost my phone, ipod, chapstck and lotion that night. My phone was found and returned to my the next night at Katies birthday dinner, my lotion apparently is in Zacks car, but my ipod and chapstick never got found. Im so fucking upset, my ipod is so important to me, and now its gone because I was so retarded that night. And now I have no idea what Zack thinks of me now, Ive tried texting him, but its still messed up and I cant send the texts. I really want to apologize to him, but I cant. He probably doesnt want to see me again, which I understand and am fine with. I would feel to stupid around him after that. Oh well, I highly doubt I will ever see him again, like ever, I just have a feeling about that. Which makes me kinda sad since I did like him, but at the same time is probably for the better. Ugh, oh well, onto happier topics please-->

Saturday was Katies 20th birthday (woo!) so a bunch of us went to Green Tea for dinner, back to Katies house for dessert and birthday shots :) then out to New Haven to Alchemy for her birthday. It was such a fun night! Now, Derek works as a promoter for Alchemy, and I knew he would be there that night because I knew he was promoting the White Party they were having. So were there for about 30-40 minutes, waiting for the place to fill up and looking for the promoter Katie talked to bc we were promised wrist bands and a bottle of champagne that we never got :(, and I was praying that I wouldnt see him that night. Not 15 minutes after I say that to Katie, who should walk buy me with some ugly drunk girl being dragged behind him? Yuppp, thats right. Oh god...so many emotions raced through my mind the moment I saw him. All of them some form of nausea or loathing. I immediately pointed him out to Katie and Mike and Alex and Joanna who were standing with me, Mike commmented that he kinda looked like Edward ScissorHands, which made me laugh because that is kinda what his "new hair style" looked like. He looked so retarded lol. So my friends and I spent the rest of the night laughing at his feeble attempts to get girls, while I was having and amazing time with all my friends and had Mike with his arm around me and trailing ice cubes down my arms and across my chest to help me cool down hahaha. Ohhhhh sweet winning :) It was sooo pathetic, he kept trying to get girls to dance with him, and he kept getting denied by everyone, even the really drunk ones bahahah. A few times when we were up in the upstairs club, Elevate at our reserved table and couches watching the awesome European guys and the crazy girl on ecstacy dance on that floor, a few times when he was in front of my on the floor he tried to grab this drunk girl he kept dragging around and make out with her, and she kept denying him. It was wonderful lol. Ohhh, you know how after you break up with someone there is an unspoken "winner" and "loser"? I'm the winner...there is no doubt about it. At all. Hahahahahhaha :D

Now its Wednesday, not a lot happened, mom and I went to Khols, I got two new basic camis (one white, one black) which I needed, and some new sunglasses, which I really needed and we went to Ben and Jerrys and tried their new "Joe" drink, which is a like coffee ice cream smoothie, verryyy yummy :) it all put me in a good mood. The this weekend I am, hopefully with Katie and Sarah, going up to New Hampshire to the cottage that Alexs family owns on a lake, and its going to be us, Greg, Alex and a bunch of his friends, some of whom I know too and were just going to hang by the lake by day, and drink by night for a whole weekend, Im really looking forward to it.

Im pretty sure thats all the big things that are happening or have happened in my life right now, give or take.

Wow, this has been a very good venting session, I just got it all out of my head, where its all been driving me crazy lately. Yayyyy blog!! :)

Ok, off to go entertain my self on facebook. Talk to you all next time I decide to write again loves!!

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