Im pathetic...just pathetic. God.
Fuck this, I dont even feel like writing everything down.
Going back to me disaronno.
Ill just say- boys suck.
Peace and Love Bitches
Stay Classy
Monday, May 24, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Holy Summer Batman!
Well shit readers!
Its summer!!! I finished my freshman year of college on friday. Im fucking pumped. I cant believe its summer already, it doesnt feel like it.
Went to the mall with my birdies today, and Tyler and his new boyfriend :) They are sooo cute together. We had an epic game of mini golf after wards too. We got there right when they were getting ready to not let any more games start, but we got the lady to let us go. Literally, by like the 16th hole we were the only people left. Period. No one else on the course, the lady in the rent hut was gone, the ice cream shop was all closed up, it was so funny. Such a fun night :)
Ugh, but now Im home and dont really know what to do with myself (hence the blogging about nothing)
Ok, this was really pointless, I have nothing else to say. Sorry for wasting your time interneters. Love you!
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Its summer!!! I finished my freshman year of college on friday. Im fucking pumped. I cant believe its summer already, it doesnt feel like it.
Went to the mall with my birdies today, and Tyler and his new boyfriend :) They are sooo cute together. We had an epic game of mini golf after wards too. We got there right when they were getting ready to not let any more games start, but we got the lady to let us go. Literally, by like the 16th hole we were the only people left. Period. No one else on the course, the lady in the rent hut was gone, the ice cream shop was all closed up, it was so funny. Such a fun night :)
Ugh, but now Im home and dont really know what to do with myself (hence the blogging about nothing)
Ok, this was really pointless, I have nothing else to say. Sorry for wasting your time interneters. Love you!
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
A little Monster with some Monster
Afternoon blog stalkers :) Im taking a break from my studious studying of biology to write down some pointless nonsense. Just for you. I love Monster, such a yummy drink. Grnated, Monster Import is better in my opinion, but this was free, so its ok. And Im listening to Monster by Skillet on my iTunes right now, love that song.
Ok,, I dont know why you needed to know any of that.
If you cant tell Im in a slightly better mood than I was last night. Only a little bit though. I think I would be happier if it wasnt cloudy and coldish and rainy outside right now, but sunny and 80s like its supposed to me tomorrow and friday. Oh my goodness, I have my bio final tonight, then after that, only two more finals and I am done with my freshman year of college!
Granted, it doesnt really mean much since I wont be returning to CCSU next semester, there isnt even a small doubt in my mind now. Which makes me really sad because I love it here, like alot. I dunno what other people complain about. Sure, its not like, the BEST school ever, but I love it here, its kinda like the home I prefer.
I really fucked up this whole year. There has never been a time that I want to go back and re-do more than this whole year. It comforts me to know that it wasnt entirely my fault, although at the same time it really is. I really wish I was coming back next semester, more than anything, I want to be back here so badly. But its not going to happen. At least not for a semester or two, and even then, theres no guarantee, I would have to re-apply and everything, and that probably wont go to well.
Chug chug chug my energy drink....Im going to need another one soon. Now if only my bank wasnt retarded and like lost the money I put in yesterday. Im hoping that for some reason it just took a while to transfer over into my checking, even though I used my debit to buy a chicken ceasar wrap from Underground Deli right after I put the money in and it worked, but Ill go check the ATM again later, and my money better be in there. Or else Im going to have to wait until after my final tonight, or actually probably tomorrow since the book store will be closed that late, when I sell back my bio book and hopefully get a good amount of money for that beast of a book.
I am in such a strange mood right now. Im like happy/content/mad/sad/spiteful/depressed/mad stressed. I dont think its healthy to have that many emotions going on at once. Especially in a girl, our bodies and minds are already intensely complicated as it is.
Well, I suppose I should go back to studying so I dont fail this final too miserably...
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Ok,, I dont know why you needed to know any of that.
If you cant tell Im in a slightly better mood than I was last night. Only a little bit though. I think I would be happier if it wasnt cloudy and coldish and rainy outside right now, but sunny and 80s like its supposed to me tomorrow and friday. Oh my goodness, I have my bio final tonight, then after that, only two more finals and I am done with my freshman year of college!
Granted, it doesnt really mean much since I wont be returning to CCSU next semester, there isnt even a small doubt in my mind now. Which makes me really sad because I love it here, like alot. I dunno what other people complain about. Sure, its not like, the BEST school ever, but I love it here, its kinda like the home I prefer.
I really fucked up this whole year. There has never been a time that I want to go back and re-do more than this whole year. It comforts me to know that it wasnt entirely my fault, although at the same time it really is. I really wish I was coming back next semester, more than anything, I want to be back here so badly. But its not going to happen. At least not for a semester or two, and even then, theres no guarantee, I would have to re-apply and everything, and that probably wont go to well.
Chug chug chug my energy drink....Im going to need another one soon. Now if only my bank wasnt retarded and like lost the money I put in yesterday. Im hoping that for some reason it just took a while to transfer over into my checking, even though I used my debit to buy a chicken ceasar wrap from Underground Deli right after I put the money in and it worked, but Ill go check the ATM again later, and my money better be in there. Or else Im going to have to wait until after my final tonight, or actually probably tomorrow since the book store will be closed that late, when I sell back my bio book and hopefully get a good amount of money for that beast of a book.
I am in such a strange mood right now. Im like happy/content/mad/sad/spiteful/depressed/mad stressed. I dont think its healthy to have that many emotions going on at once. Especially in a girl, our bodies and minds are already intensely complicated as it is.
Well, I suppose I should go back to studying so I dont fail this final too miserably...
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Well fuck this shit
Arrrggggggg damn me and my exceptional facebook stalking skills!!!
Now I am mad at myself, and kinda sad. I was doing really good. Now I miss him again. Fuckin A. There's not even anything to miss! It was nothing! We had an unspoken understanding!!! And I had to go and ruin it for myself by starting to like him.
And now Ive managed to find his facebook...with his pictures...and I dont even have the nerve to friend him. Doesnt seem right for me to, considering. Maybe Ill work up enough courage sometime during the very dead middle of the summer. Ill be safe then since Im not coming back to CCSU next year so I dont have to worry about ever seeing him again. Ever. So the coast will be clear for a random, awkward friend request....cant wait. Ish. Oh I dont know.
Im pathetic.
Whatever, Ive got my bio final tomorrow, I need my sleep.
Granted it is at 6:30 pm and I will be sleeping late and taking a nap...but still.
Signing my sad ass off.
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Now I am mad at myself, and kinda sad. I was doing really good. Now I miss him again. Fuckin A. There's not even anything to miss! It was nothing! We had an unspoken understanding!!! And I had to go and ruin it for myself by starting to like him.
And now Ive managed to find his facebook...with his pictures...and I dont even have the nerve to friend him. Doesnt seem right for me to, considering. Maybe Ill work up enough courage sometime during the very dead middle of the summer. Ill be safe then since Im not coming back to CCSU next year so I dont have to worry about ever seeing him again. Ever. So the coast will be clear for a random, awkward friend request....cant wait. Ish. Oh I dont know.
Im pathetic.
Whatever, Ive got my bio final tomorrow, I need my sleep.
Granted it is at 6:30 pm and I will be sleeping late and taking a nap...but still.
Signing my sad ass off.
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Dont worry, I havent forgotten about you...
I really dont have anything to write in here right now, but I havent made a new post in a while, so I feel I should say something.
On that note, I do have plenty to say, Im just not sure I want to say it all out loud. Most of my thoughts Id rather keep in my head right now. Maybe later. Lets just say like I said in my last post, a lot of stuff is going on in my head right now, too much for me to even sort out. Im surprised with everything thats going on right now Ive managed to keep it all together, Im applauding the fact that I havent totally snapped yet. I have a feeling that will come later. It is not avoidable. Damn you final week adding farrrr more stress to my plate than I need right now. Stupid finals.....
On that happy note, I remembered I guess I do have stuff to write. Went to a car show in Windsor Locks, or some town with a "W", where ever Porter and Chester Institution is, with Mike and Gareth. Was there from 11 to about 6:30. It was mad fun. Long, with lots of just standing around, but even that was fun. The sun was a lot stronger out than I thought it was supposed to be today, and it was out for the whole day, not a lot of cloud break. Needless to say I look like a lobster. I am in such pain right now, I am so burnt. All over my arms, my chest, the back of my knees, my thighs, my feet around my sandals, and my face. Mainly on my right side though, apparently I was standing with my right side facing the sun the most.
But my face, oy. Go google Kim Kardashian sunburn and take that picture of her horrible sunglasses tan, but imagine it only on the right side of her face, because the left side was covered by bangs. Thats my face right now. Yayyyy for cover up :)
Right, but Im fucking mad tired right now. Ive been up since 8, walking around and standing about 7 and a half hours, and all in the direct sun, which makes you tired anyways.
So, night all!!
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
On that note, I do have plenty to say, Im just not sure I want to say it all out loud. Most of my thoughts Id rather keep in my head right now. Maybe later. Lets just say like I said in my last post, a lot of stuff is going on in my head right now, too much for me to even sort out. Im surprised with everything thats going on right now Ive managed to keep it all together, Im applauding the fact that I havent totally snapped yet. I have a feeling that will come later. It is not avoidable. Damn you final week adding farrrr more stress to my plate than I need right now. Stupid finals.....
On that happy note, I remembered I guess I do have stuff to write. Went to a car show in Windsor Locks, or some town with a "W", where ever Porter and Chester Institution is, with Mike and Gareth. Was there from 11 to about 6:30. It was mad fun. Long, with lots of just standing around, but even that was fun. The sun was a lot stronger out than I thought it was supposed to be today, and it was out for the whole day, not a lot of cloud break. Needless to say I look like a lobster. I am in such pain right now, I am so burnt. All over my arms, my chest, the back of my knees, my thighs, my feet around my sandals, and my face. Mainly on my right side though, apparently I was standing with my right side facing the sun the most.
But my face, oy. Go google Kim Kardashian sunburn and take that picture of her horrible sunglasses tan, but imagine it only on the right side of her face, because the left side was covered by bangs. Thats my face right now. Yayyyy for cover up :)
Right, but Im fucking mad tired right now. Ive been up since 8, walking around and standing about 7 and a half hours, and all in the direct sun, which makes you tired anyways.
So, night all!!
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Too much going round in my head...
For some reason this song is just like explaining how I feel perfectly right now, like I just keep listening to it over and over again on my iPod:
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#Pink%2C%20Sober/all/1
Hopefully that link will work.
But IDK interneters, I just feel so strange and kinda sad right now. I dont want to leave Central and go back home where I have less freedom and cant make my own decisions, but at the same time since there is like, a %98 chance that I will not be returning to Central next semester its kinda depressing me staying here and Im ready to move on. I feel kinda torn between to places. I dunno.
Ughhh, fucking finals!! I have my PE final tomorrow during our regular class time so we dont have to come in during final week (thank you teacher-man) and I need to do good on it so I can pass the class. But of course I am so sick today, I didnt go to any of my classes, I just feel like total shit. So studying has been tortuous. Im getting it done in little spurts, but my mind is so cloudy and there is so much else going on up there I dunno if it will be enough. Def going to have to get up early tomorrow morning to study more, dunno if thats going to go over too well either.
And then next week during actual final week I have a final a day tuesday-friday, move back home friday night. Ugh, soooo stressed. Starting the week with my english final (fuck) and ending it with my math final (double fuck), with bio and history in between (serious fml...) Im just screwed....
Ughh, dont really know what else to write now...Im so out of it. Maybe a nap will help me feel better.
Sweet dreams internet.
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#Pink%2C%20Sober/all/1
Hopefully that link will work.
But IDK interneters, I just feel so strange and kinda sad right now. I dont want to leave Central and go back home where I have less freedom and cant make my own decisions, but at the same time since there is like, a %98 chance that I will not be returning to Central next semester its kinda depressing me staying here and Im ready to move on. I feel kinda torn between to places. I dunno.
Ughhh, fucking finals!! I have my PE final tomorrow during our regular class time so we dont have to come in during final week (thank you teacher-man) and I need to do good on it so I can pass the class. But of course I am so sick today, I didnt go to any of my classes, I just feel like total shit. So studying has been tortuous. Im getting it done in little spurts, but my mind is so cloudy and there is so much else going on up there I dunno if it will be enough. Def going to have to get up early tomorrow morning to study more, dunno if thats going to go over too well either.
And then next week during actual final week I have a final a day tuesday-friday, move back home friday night. Ugh, soooo stressed. Starting the week with my english final (fuck) and ending it with my math final (double fuck), with bio and history in between (serious fml...) Im just screwed....
Ughh, dont really know what else to write now...Im so out of it. Maybe a nap will help me feel better.
Sweet dreams internet.
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Monday, May 10, 2010
NyQuil? Please?
Fuck being sick. Again. For the second time in like 3 weeks. And I have no NyQuil or DayQuil or anything. Ughhhhh. My throat is killing me and my nose is so stuffy and Im so tired. Just going to go to sleep....there was no real point to this post except I havent written in my blog in a while.
Youre welcome
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Youre welcome
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Thursday, May 6, 2010
But I want a Ring Pop....
GOD history class is boring......
Dick teacher decided to call on me at the beginning of the class too. Fucking political cartoons....I dont understand them! I have no insight about the one you put on a powerpoint! Dont ask me "what I notice about it", because I dont notice anything except the artist is a really bad drawer...although I have a hunch thats not what my teacher was going for. So I just read the speech bubble that the fat guy representing Corporate America said and sent strong mental signals to the Mr. Sad-Courduroy-Jacket-Man to stfu and leave me alone. No luck. He kept prodding me asking me what this meant, and what that meant. If I knew I would have said it in the first place!
Ok, I vented a bit, its ok now.
OOOOOOOMG, fashion show is tomorrow night!!!!!! :D :D :D
Alex promised to bring me a blue raspberry ring pop tomorrow night. Its my engagement ring bahaha. He better remember the rock, or there will be issues :p
Omg, I have noooo idea what to wear to the afterparty!!!!!! :o
I dont know what to wear to the club tonight either, but tonight is a little less important than tomorrow night. Just a bit.
Ughhhhh, so much going on in my mind!
Had my last ID class today. Thank god/kinda going to miss it. Despite the fact that the class was at 9:30 am, and the reason why I was in it, it was kinda a fun class. The teacher was pretty cool and my group was alot of fun, as was everyone else in that class, with a few exceptions lol. Also, this was like my only contact with Jack for the last half of this semester. I dunno what happened with us. Everything is just mad confusing there...I dont even want to get into it, its too confusing for me to even try to sort out. But today we walked out of the classroom at the same time and were walking the same direction around the building and we had like, a nice little conversation about our teacher and drinking for Cinco de Mayo last night. Probably the last time Ill ever get a chance to talk to him. Nice way to end that relationship. Sadly.
Ughhhh, 15 minutes left....fuck, why cant he just let us out early?? No one is paying ANY attention to him! No one is answering any of his questions! ...Except that guy. Right. Ok, NOW no one is paying any attention to him. Ugh!
Sooo, I must be mad stressed out again, my chin broke out in the itchy rash again. Fucking A. Like I need one more thing to remind me of how stressed I am and to make me even more stressed. Stupid stress....
8 minutes left...
Wtf is this guy even talking about?
6 minutes left...
I have so much studying to do for finals, not like its going to help me.
4 minutes left...
Do I want a bagel after class?
2 minutes left...
Yes, yes I do.
TIME TO GO!! :D
Take it easy interneters
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Dick teacher decided to call on me at the beginning of the class too. Fucking political cartoons....I dont understand them! I have no insight about the one you put on a powerpoint! Dont ask me "what I notice about it", because I dont notice anything except the artist is a really bad drawer...although I have a hunch thats not what my teacher was going for. So I just read the speech bubble that the fat guy representing Corporate America said and sent strong mental signals to the Mr. Sad-Courduroy-Jacket-Man to stfu and leave me alone. No luck. He kept prodding me asking me what this meant, and what that meant. If I knew I would have said it in the first place!
Ok, I vented a bit, its ok now.
OOOOOOOMG, fashion show is tomorrow night!!!!!! :D :D :D
Alex promised to bring me a blue raspberry ring pop tomorrow night. Its my engagement ring bahaha. He better remember the rock, or there will be issues :p
Omg, I have noooo idea what to wear to the afterparty!!!!!! :o
I dont know what to wear to the club tonight either, but tonight is a little less important than tomorrow night. Just a bit.
Ughhhhh, so much going on in my mind!
Had my last ID class today. Thank god/kinda going to miss it. Despite the fact that the class was at 9:30 am, and the reason why I was in it, it was kinda a fun class. The teacher was pretty cool and my group was alot of fun, as was everyone else in that class, with a few exceptions lol. Also, this was like my only contact with Jack for the last half of this semester. I dunno what happened with us. Everything is just mad confusing there...I dont even want to get into it, its too confusing for me to even try to sort out. But today we walked out of the classroom at the same time and were walking the same direction around the building and we had like, a nice little conversation about our teacher and drinking for Cinco de Mayo last night. Probably the last time Ill ever get a chance to talk to him. Nice way to end that relationship. Sadly.
Ughhhh, 15 minutes left....fuck, why cant he just let us out early?? No one is paying ANY attention to him! No one is answering any of his questions! ...Except that guy. Right. Ok, NOW no one is paying any attention to him. Ugh!
Sooo, I must be mad stressed out again, my chin broke out in the itchy rash again. Fucking A. Like I need one more thing to remind me of how stressed I am and to make me even more stressed. Stupid stress....
8 minutes left...
Wtf is this guy even talking about?
6 minutes left...
I have so much studying to do for finals, not like its going to help me.
4 minutes left...
Do I want a bagel after class?
2 minutes left...
Yes, yes I do.
TIME TO GO!! :D
Take it easy interneters
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Wake up in the morning feeling like an alcoholic ;)
Successful Cinco de Mayo :)
Almost fully sober again!
Woke up at 7:30 this morning for my 9:30 class and was def still a little drunk...that was a fun class.
Downed like 2 bottles of water and managed to eat a bagel, starting to feel much better now, still a little buzzed though.
Thank god I dont get hangovers or else it would be hitting me at like 2 in the afternoon!!
Ok, time to go suffer through english.....
Happy morning after! ;)
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Almost fully sober again!
Woke up at 7:30 this morning for my 9:30 class and was def still a little drunk...that was a fun class.
Downed like 2 bottles of water and managed to eat a bagel, starting to feel much better now, still a little buzzed though.
Thank god I dont get hangovers or else it would be hitting me at like 2 in the afternoon!!
Ok, time to go suffer through english.....
Happy morning after! ;)
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Oops...
Apologies for my little computer doodles in my last post, they got messed up with the re-formatting when I published it. I swear, they looked good when I first typed them out!
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Aannddd Im back in history class. This is so pointless. Ive given up on taking notes and am now facebook creeping peoples photos. Like, hardcore. :) I really dont care about the Reagan scandal, sorry Mr. Courduroy-Jacket-Teacher-Man,(You would think by the end of the semester I would know my teachers names....but no)sorry. Facebook and texting are just soooooooooo much more interesting!
Ugh, I thought I was going to be good today and stick to and really enforce my diet today...I think Im just doomed to be fat :( Which is rather a bad thing since my fashion show is friday night. For those of you who cant count out there, thats three days from now. Arrrggggggggg
I want ice cream.
NO! Dammit! ......
I really want to get involved in Habitat For Humanity. If I end up coming back to CCSU next year thats the first thing Im going to do. That and join CAN, I really wanted to get involved with that too, but I never did. I just did freshman year here all wrong. One person had a huge impact on how messed up my first 2 semesters were in particular...ugh, dont even want to think about it right now.
OMG fashion show on friday!!!!!!!!! I am soooooo excited!! Omg I cant wait for this, its going to be soooo much fun!! :D :D And the afterparty is going to be bangin too, haha, ohmygoodness I juts cant wait.
12 minutes left....
9 minutes left.....
Stupid Cold War....
_ _
( \/ )
\ /
\/
Whoo! :)
6 minutes left....
Think Im a little anxious to get out of this class?
....Nah...
/\__/\
(- . - )zzzz...
Sleepy cat...
Fuck Im bored.
Ok, 2 minutes left, time to pack up the laptop (Yayyyyyy)
Love you all!!!
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Ugh, I thought I was going to be good today and stick to and really enforce my diet today...I think Im just doomed to be fat :( Which is rather a bad thing since my fashion show is friday night. For those of you who cant count out there, thats three days from now. Arrrggggggggg
I want ice cream.
NO! Dammit! ......
I really want to get involved in Habitat For Humanity. If I end up coming back to CCSU next year thats the first thing Im going to do. That and join CAN, I really wanted to get involved with that too, but I never did. I just did freshman year here all wrong. One person had a huge impact on how messed up my first 2 semesters were in particular...ugh, dont even want to think about it right now.
OMG fashion show on friday!!!!!!!!! I am soooooo excited!! Omg I cant wait for this, its going to be soooo much fun!! :D :D And the afterparty is going to be bangin too, haha, ohmygoodness I juts cant wait.
12 minutes left....
9 minutes left.....
Stupid Cold War....
_ _
( \/ )
\ /
\/
Whoo! :)
6 minutes left....
Think Im a little anxious to get out of this class?
....Nah...
/\__/\
(- . - )zzzz...
Sleepy cat...
Fuck Im bored.
Ok, 2 minutes left, time to pack up the laptop (Yayyyyyy)
Love you all!!!
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Monday, May 3, 2010
Bagels and Bananas
Sorry to my few followers for not writing anything for a few days. How you managed to still function without a new post from me is just simply unfathomable!
Anyways.....
Just got back from my advising appointment....this summer and next semester is going to be funnnnn...stupid grades and classes and old advisor putting me in wrong classes and all this other bullshit I have to sort out....too much stress being added onto all the other stress I already have. And to think if things go the way I want Ill never be out of the education system....
Wow.....this is bad...I just had a staring contest with my fish...I lost. I really need to start getting more sleep. No more 2 am cookie or tostitos chips runs to be eaten on one of the upper levels of Copernicus garage....yeah, you know who Im talking about :p
But, I swear I had a point to writing this post....I just cant for the life of me remember what it was....sooo...if I remember what it was Ill let all two of my followers know :)
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
Anyways.....
Just got back from my advising appointment....this summer and next semester is going to be funnnnn...stupid grades and classes and old advisor putting me in wrong classes and all this other bullshit I have to sort out....too much stress being added onto all the other stress I already have. And to think if things go the way I want Ill never be out of the education system....
Wow.....this is bad...I just had a staring contest with my fish...I lost. I really need to start getting more sleep. No more 2 am cookie or tostitos chips runs to be eaten on one of the upper levels of Copernicus garage....yeah, you know who Im talking about :p
But, I swear I had a point to writing this post....I just cant for the life of me remember what it was....sooo...if I remember what it was Ill let all two of my followers know :)
Peace and Love
Stay Classy
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